|Werá Jeguaka Mirim: "Demarcation NOW!"|
|Chief Roberto Mucaro Borrero wearing a Taino headdress|
It might sound silly, but it works as an outlet. Since my early 20s I've had flashbacks to violent events in my childhood. As a teenager I tried my hardest to forget things like being sexually assaulted by someone older then me. Other things, like my own violent behavior towards attackers, was mostly locked away or misremembered. For example, I remembered hitting someone with the handle of a knife, but in reality I was repressing the memory of hitting them with the blade. Pulling myself together and making sense of these events has been difficult. Many of my loved ones have no idea of my past, and even the ones who do, couldn't possible understand the feelings that come with those events as even I have trouble putting them into context. I appear aggressive, belligerent, and paranoid. The easiest way to keep these feelings in check is by focusing my aggression, either on my work or into my hobbies which include sports and especially competitive videogames like fighting games. I will always gravitate towards the "Native American" characters in fighting games like Wolf Hawkfield, T.Hawk, Chief Thunder, Julia Chang and NightWolf. Playing fighting games, and empowering myself through "Native American" avatars is a healthy outlet.
|Raul Candy Shop NYC|
|This ain't Custard's Revenge|
Maya is a character even closer to my own heritage then Chief Thunder. I'm dedicated to learning her playstyle and using her online. I'm even more motivated to get an Xbox One to play as her. In the coming months, a trip to visit friends and family in South America and the Caribbean will help me figure out what is necessary in leading my own tribe, and will allow me to help other tribes. Playing as an implicitly Guarani character in a fighting game won't undo the things being done to our people, but is one step forward in allowing some of the stories of those people to be told, even if it is simply bringing the tribal links to the attention of the FGC and gaming as a whole. People need to know, to understand why things need to change and the inclusion of "someone like us" makes speaking about why things need to change easier.